Let’s just cut to the chase. I’ve been struggling.
Something has me down in the dumps and I feel like the turd in the punch bowl of life. I don’t think I’m depressed, I’m just not happy. And why the hell aren’t I?
I have a roof over my head, three great kids, a caring husband, a kick-ass dog, and all of you.
I feel like I’ve lost my way. I don’t write on a regular basis, my home is a mess, I struggle to keep my calm with my kids, and I am quite content being by myself. This is not who I want to be.
Things you may have noticed if you are a regular visitor here:
-I don’t blog often or consistently. I struggle with finding topics to write about and feel like I have nothing witty to say. So does that mean I’ve lost my wits?
-I’ve been out of touch with all of my Twitterettes and haven’t kept up on my blog buddies. I feel like a huge schmuck because of it. Don’t think I don’t think of you because I haven’t reached out lately. I think of you often yet haven’t taken the time to keep in touch. And that’s crappy of me.
-If you are a “real-life” friend, I’ve really let you down. I don’t call and barely text. When I do, it’s because I need something. That is a shitty friend for you right there. I’m very sorry and I really don’t have an excuse. The only way to maintain friendships with those we hold dear is to actually do some maintaining. I promise I’ll do better.
-My posts have been really lame or total downers lately. I’m declaring this my last one (this one is lame AND a downer) and it’s going to be puppies and rainbows from here on out! Okay, the puppy might still shit on the rug once in a while but I’ll work hard to keep it mostly sloppy kisses.
I’m determined to turn things around. I’ve been hugely inspired by writer and friend, Nina Badzin. She has four children and gets up early to write for a couple of hours before her role as mom takes over. My kids are all in school and I struggle to get a blog post out. I just love who she is. She is a great mom, supportive wife, caring friend, and unwavering supporter to so many writers. I look up to her immensely and she’s got a new mantra that I love.
“Do the work.” That’s it. Plain and simple.
So I’m going to get to it. Writing feeds my soul and when I get words on the page, I feel like a new person. I’m a better me.
I’m adopting Nina’s mantra as well and taking 2014 by the horns.
- Have you ever felt out of sync with yourself like I do now? How did you get through it?
- Who inspires you to do more, be more?
- What are your goals for 2014?